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    I don't know what to do anymore. When I was younger everything seemed so simple. I was going to get married at 18, become a marine biologist/fireman, have a perfect home, a good car, and wonderful life. But nothing works quite the way you expect when you think that those things are going to just come naturally. It was like I thought that some magical force was just going to dump all of this into my lap. I feel pretty stupid when I think about all of the plans I used to have.
    Now I wonder what could possibly go right in life. I mean when I think about all of the things I wanted before I am left with the sad realization that even though some of my old goals are achievable there is no point in achieving them. It doesn't take too much brainwork for me to realize that my political beliefs are going to get smashed by my want to survive. Assuming that I did still want to become a scientist I would have to go through so many years of college that by the time I got out the last thing I would be worrying about is getting involved in politics. I would be more worried about getting a job and paying off loans and what not. Not only that, but even if I did manage to pay off my loans I wouldn't have enough time to put the majority of my energy into political activism. And assuming that my job gave me enough time to do that there is still the fact that there is no organization to join.
    Doesn't matter what activist organization you look at. All a bunch of shit. Tame assholes who think that the diplomatic approach via court cases will gain them freedom. But just because the government may have let them win a court case suddenly they think they have dealt a blow to Uncle Sam. But morons need to realize that as long as you utilize the same channels that are controlled by those who control you you are not dealing a blow to anything. Of course Uncle Sam is going to pass a couple of laws, but that is called appeasement not victory. It works like this: people get pissed and start a big riot, Uncle Sam makes a compromise, people become happy again, Uncle Sam finds a loop hole, people get pissed again, rinse and repeat. The same thing happens with protests. Little gains mean nothing when the whole damned thing is rigged against you before you ever make an attempt.
     It fucking sickens me that despite the fact that people are against the system they think that the system will work for them. How the fuck does that make sense? You can't use someone else's game against them unless the game is unbiased. This is not a fair chess game. If this was chess then the activist side of the board would be nothing but pawns and the system side would be nothing but queens. And even if you did brilliant strategizing and somehow managed to get close to winning, the system can always alter the game. Don't forget who would really win if the activist side won either.
    Remember that organizations require money. Remember that few people have the kind of money to run organizations. Remember that the main organizers actually run the organization. Remember that these organizers get to speak the loudest. Remember that these people are NOT the disenfranchised. Remember that freedom isn't free.
    Ask yourself, "Why the fuck would I want an aristocrat to represent me?" How the hell would you benefit from such a set up? The best situation would be a lower to middle class uprising lead by the average joe. Because the average joe knows what it is to be on the bottom. The average joe has a reason. The average joe is connected to the average joe. The rich man walks on the average joe every fucking day. Because there is no way to be rich within this country otherwise. It is nonsensical to be rich and try to help the oppressed and maintain that aristocracy. The whole fucking point is to balance things out. We don't want a Prometheus, we want men and women of our own standing to change things. People who rally behind a Prometheus are going to get ass-fucked, because in order to keep his position on the totem pole Prometheus requires some level of inequality between himself and us.
    If we want to win we have to come up with our own rules. We have to create our own system. We can't rely on something we know is screwed up. And we have to actually take action. Take a look at Cuba. Did Castro say, "I'm going take this country by political force," fuck no, because he knew that that was pointless. Nor did he simply threaten to rebel. Words are meaningless if they are not backed up with action. You can say fuck no to any law you want, but until you physically do something about it, nothing will change. You can't pussyfoot around and expect a big return. The closest thing that we have done to what we should be doing is massive boycott and outright refusal to obey laws. But even then it isn't a nationwide effort. There needs to be unity in our efforts to stop this dreadnought, because although the individual is powerful, large organized groups of individuals are more powerful...
    I'm going to stop writing now, because my brain needs restorative sleep magics....